Sacred Feminine Power is Creation AND Destruction

The sacred feminine isn't just an archetype or a set of behaviors. She is a force, and that force is in you.

One of my favorite things to do when I was younger was to throw pottery on a wheel. It was really good practice for my (then) type-A, over-perfectionist (aka traumatized) personality to play with mud in a situation where you could either make art, or it would utterly collapse, ending in destruction. 

It takes the will out of the process, or as some would say, the “ego.” If you have ever tried to create someone on a potter’s wheel and tried to control the process, you know what a joke that is. You have the option, though, to become a co-creator and get a taste of cooperating with Creation. Only in the cooperation can you actually create anything.

And you can’t really know true Creation without also knowing destruction. 

Sacred Remembrance of Creation & Destruction.

These are the two sides of the same coin, and today I’m talking about them as the two forces of the Primordial Feminine. 

In the past ten years, I’ve journeyed steadily on this holy path to reclaim the feminine essence of myself and Creation, studying the energetics of not only the rise of the feminine, but the energetics of remapping and recovering feminine and masculine harmony. 

This path has led me in the past few years through and beyond the topics of human dynamics and archetypes (which can be very limited) and deep into the energetics of Creation, and deeper still into my own remembrance of the Primordial Mother. It has been the deepest remembering yet - with what feels like Codes of Creation continually coming online in my consciousness and body through my own personal willingness to sit with these frequencies (I share this in the Heartland Inner Circle for women.) This primordial force includes both what exists in the Earth, in what I channel as the “Soils of Creation” and also the Cosmic, and also within you and your own womb.

It seems to me that there is a void from which all things come and all things go. I will call this the Cosmic Womb.

Manifestation requires destruction.

Now, what’s funny is that I spent a really long time, as many women do, wanting the good and ever-ascending version of the story, with all the accumulation of success and shiny manifestations, and would often wonder why it wasn't happening. I was trying to get it right, discover the formula, and excel.

My entrepreneurial path has also quite seriously consisted of me throwing out anything that felt like patriarchal programming and looking for the New Earth way of doing things.

I was always asking myself what healthy feminine and masculine looked like in the new paradigm of business. This involves consistently asking yourself how you know what you know, and if you still believe what you thought you knew.

What even are feminine and masculine, anyway? ;)

One of the greatest falsehoods that is still touted everywhere you look is that "the masculine is equal to provision," or "the masculine is provision and the feminine is reception." The social, spiritual, creational and financial ramifications of this false belief is negatively impacting so many people. When I peeled this one back and began to question whether or not I believed it anymore - come to think of it - this was the beginning of my relationship with the Primordial Mother and the Cosmic Womb.

Spirituality, religion, patriarchy, and every other male-centric thing out there would teach you that all your wants and wishes are going to be dropped unto you from a masculine thing, either a sky-God or a man-God. That "manifestation" is literally something poofing out of the AIR and descending into your life, probably from a Sky Daddy or a man.

As if the masculine force of Creation had the ability to… I don’t know… weave particle matter into form. 

No! What absolutely does have the capacity to do that is nothing other than a womb! A womb takes the tiny but mighty seed (particle) and organizes it into an entire form with organized cells, organs, shape and structure. The womb takes the first particles of matter and continues to build and organize matter into form!

It does not just magically become true that “masculine equals provision” because a few thousands years of patriarchy have shifted social structures to engrain that into you. Men became primary providers when they were socially given primary access to monetary resources, positions of power, and the extracted resources of women, non-white humans, and the earth!

We get confused on this path. It makes sense that we would, because we are seekers, seeking to understand the ways of Creation when what we’ve had were other, inverted, stories. We are sorting out a lot of mistruths to find what is true. Don’t take my word for it - keep seeking for yourself. 

So everyone wants the shiny manifestations, and we climb the ladders and put forward our efforts to control Creation, and we are so often unwilling to experience destruction. We are still collectively unwilling to know the feminine.

Have you experienced destruction on the way up? Oh Lord, I have. It’s a humbling experience, but I’m more than grateful for it. It taught me not to be a fool, not to think that every pot comes off the wheel a masterpiece. Some result in a pile of mud. But I already knew that. 

When our ascent becomes our descent, we have a beautiful opportunity to explore the soil. To come back to earth. And since we want earthly, tangible things coming into form, it would be good to involve the actual particles of matter (Mother/Mater).

The Soils hold the Secrets. The soils inoculate your remembrance and gestate your desires. The Soils make you Creational again, they help you remember. They take you out of the world of consumerism and commodities and make you an aspect of Creation again. 

It is a wise woman who will be willing to shift out of the narratives of ascension and manifestation and deeply rest in the Soils of Creation. 

Just as you can not expect to always reap your harvest from the same garden without replenishing the nutrients with some compost, you simply can not have true creation without the energetics of destruction. 

A woman who embodies destruction is a safer woman.

Being in touch with the true destruction of the Primordial force of Creation is actually the safest and most empowering thing for a woman and those in her life.

Because something was drastically lost when women were stripped of this knowing - that being her own power. 

The energetic structure of society, the way work and money have operated, and patriarchy as a whole was false. By that I mean that it was counter to Creational energetics. It went against Nature rather than working with it. It stripped and extracted resources rather than replenishing.

And the reason why women are tired now is because of that - because your resources were extracted by way of the system. Let's call "burn out" what it really is.

The structure of the systems that have existed in patriarchy purposefully diverted and stole feminine energy. Women temporarily forgot their Creational capacity, which will happen when systems of deficit and resource extraction are set up and generation upon generation of women are forced to think about survival for themselves and their children.

No shame. I mean, we still have to prioritize our remembrance if we want it, because the world would be very well satisfied to continue to reap of women’s wombs and creational energies. If you want to recover the sovereignty and sanctity of your own feminine resources, and create with them, then you're going to be the one that has to do that work. (I am here to support you.) The world is not going to grant it to you, if you haven't noticed.

As women fought to get out of that system - think “feminism” - they fought for power by fighting against the system. This is an early phase of feminine empowerment. We realize we’ve been oppressed and that someone (many someones) have been taking from us for too damn long, and we start to revolt. 

We name names, we point fingers, we bitch, we say “I don’t need a man!”, we self protect, we isolate, we become willing to do it all ourselves. 

This is not healthy destruction. This is the anti-life, anti-Creational force turned against our own self, unknowingly. We’d be far better off to cultivate our remembrance of Creation and the creational capacity within us. 

Because something cool happens when we remember Primordial Creation, and then we also have embodied the remembrance of the Primordial Destruction. 

We just become powerful. Not in opposition or relation to anyone else - but because that is what we are, that is what the Primordial Feminine is. And she is a force for Love. 

Again, that is what we are doing in the Heartland Inner Circle for women.

Healthy destruction and feminine power.

This is what they fear in us. 

They subdued the feminine to steal creational capacity, and also to thwart our natural force of destruction. To make us forget we are powerful. 

We have the ability to create and destroy, just as the Primordial Mother of Creation. 

I have seen things change in the field just because I entered a room. 

I have seen men’s false power and manipulation turn against them when a woman begins to simply embody who she actually is and detaches. (A woman who fights against false power only grows the strength of false power, giving her energy away to it. Have you noticed that?) 

I have seen the grids of the Earth begin to support what is built in collaboration with the organization of the Cosmic Womb, and stop supporting what is built on false structures that take and deplete. (I personally believe and experience that this is what Hurricane Helene was about in late 2024 in Western NC where I live.)

This and more is happening because we remember. When we embody the power of Creation and Destruction, the literal energy field of our lives is impacted. It reorganizes. It kicks out what doesn't belong. It takes care of things for you. It works with you, for thriving life. (This only works, of course, if you're in actual integrity and embodiment of this.)

I now have friends who are other mothers who also lost their children to things like abuse, ridiculous ex-husbands who think that their power to take and manipulate is inexhaustible, a faulty judicial system, and a lack of societal initiations for our sons in adolescence. I’m one of these women. 

The amount of shit we women have had to take within these power dynamics often feels like same abuse and raping of our energy that we’ve had to endure for centuries upon centuries. It’s often continually abusive and exhausting. It’s systematically meant to strip power, but it’s infuriating. 

I feel we are in the in-between time when we’re regaining our own personal remembrance of rightful power, and remembering collectively, but the systems of exploitation are still in place. Good thing we’ll be ready as they fall. 

My friends and I have had some good conversations about anger. One of my friends whose children were stolen and swayed away from her said, “I think it’s healthy to feel so angry you could actually kill someone.” Because it means you’re not lying down, just taking it, crying victim, or whining about injustice hoping it will make a difference. And obviously, we’re not going to kill anyone. But you know what it does result in to feel this deeply? Our own becoming. 

We won’t be destroyed or raped anymore, not even energetically, so by God, we’re going to get really fucking angry and funnel it into who we’re meant to become. If this makes no sense to you, I’m sorry. If it scares you a little bit, we’re on the right track. 

Women, I am encouraging you to embody your destruction. The force of it. Can you feel it?

It needs to be a force that is working for love, Creation, the children, and what is rightful, not against anything.

Some good healthy fear also leads to respect. If women bring this destructive force online in themselves, we are no longer a doormat. That force would have to be respected, because it is respectable. 

No one stands in front of a hurricane and tells it to stop. No one thinks it can boss Mother Nature (except those trying to manipulate Mother Nature, but same same.) No one tries to take a lion cub from a mama lion. Nature shows us healthy destruction. It’s not just “Mama Bear.” It’s fucking destruction. 

And here’s the thing - the more a woman is embodied in her remembrance of the Primordial Feminine, the less she’s going to tolerate, and the sheer movement of her standing up as herself in these spaces is enough to destroy the false grid (energy) structures that held those false power dynamics in place. 

Think about it - if your energy and resources that were kept enslaved in a false system where not just men, but nasty forces acting through any human, kept you held like a puppet on a string, yanked you around for access to your kids and money, and stole your essence of Creation to use for evil, then suddenly can no longer do that because you remember… 

It’s almost as though you become naturally destructive. 

You don’t wish harm. You don’t curse anyone. 

You remember who the fuck you are and you allow the almighty power of the Mother Returned to do what it does. Flip a table. Set fire to a situation. Or a paradigm. 

And then you plant. You cultivate your soils. You deepen into the fecundity and you do it for all the generations forward and backward. Because you can. Because this is what you came to do, who you came to be. 

You resist by becoming. 

You win by remembering. 

You create and destroy because you have the capacity to love.

And you’re too loving to choose evil or revenge, so you invest your destructive capacity into more creation. (This is also called eros.) 

And you repeat. 

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