Sacred Feminine Power is Creation AND Destruction

The Sacred Feminine: A Force Within You

One of my favorite things to do when I was younger was to throw pottery on a wheel. It was excellent practice for my (then) type-A, over-perfectionist (aka traumatized) personality to play with mud in a situation where you could either create art or watch it utterly collapse.

This process takes the will out of creation, or as some would say, the “ego.” If you have ever tried to create something on a potter’s wheel while trying to control the process, you know how futile that can be. However, you have the option to become a co-creator and experience the beauty of cooperating with Creation. Only through cooperation can you truly create anything.

And you can’t know true Creation without also understanding destruction.

The Sacred Remembrance of Creation & Destruction

These two elements are the two sides of the same coin, and today I’m discussing them as the two forces of the Primordial Feminine.

Over the past decade, I’ve journeyed steadily on this holy path to reclaim the feminine essence within myself and the universe. I have studied not only the rise of the feminine but also the energetics of remapping and recovering harmony between the feminine and masculine.

This path has led me through various topics, from human dynamics to archetypes, which can often feel limiting. I have delved deep into the energetics of Creation and, even deeper, into my own remembrance of the Primordial Mother. This journey has felt like a profound awakening, with what seems like Codes of Creation continually coming online in my consciousness and body. I share this in the Heartland Inner Circle for women. This primordial force encompasses everything that exists in the Earth, what I channel as the “Soils of Creation,” and also the Cosmic, and within you and your own womb.

It seems to me that there is a void from which all things come and go. I call this the Cosmic Womb.

Manifestation Requires Destruction

Now, what’s amusing is that I spent a long time, as many women do, yearning for the good and ever-ascending version of the story. I wanted all the success and shiny manifestations and often wondered why they weren't happening. I was trying to get it right, to discover the formula, and to excel.

My entrepreneurial journey has also involved discarding anything that felt like patriarchal programming and seeking the New Earth way of doing things. I consistently asked myself what healthy feminine and masculine looked like in this new paradigm of business. This involves questioning how you know what you know and whether you still believe what you thought you knew.

What even are feminine and masculine, anyway? 😉

One of the greatest falsehoods still perpetuated is that "the masculine is equal to provision," or "the masculine is provision and the feminine is reception." The social, spiritual, creational, and financial ramifications of this belief negatively impact so many people. When I peeled back this notion and began to question whether I still believed it, I realized that this was the beginning of my relationship with the Primordial Mother and the Cosmic Womb.

Spirituality, religion, patriarchy, and every male-centric ideology teach you that all your wants and wishes will be granted by a masculine entity, whether a sky-God or a man-God. They suggest that "manifestation" is something that poofs out of the AIR and descends into your life, likely from a Sky Daddy or a man.

As if the masculine force of Creation could weave particle matter into form.

No! What truly has the capacity to do that is nothing other than a womb! A womb takes the tiny but mighty seed (particle) and organizes it into a complete form with cells, organs, shape, and structure. The womb takes those first particles of matter and continues to build and organize them into form!

It does not magically become true that “masculine equals provision” because a few thousand years of patriarchy have ingrained that belief into us. Men became primary providers when they were socially granted primary access to monetary resources, positions of power, and the extracted resources of women, non-white humans, and the Earth!

We get confused on this path. It makes sense that we would, because we are seekers, trying to understand the ways of Creation while grappling with inverted stories. We are sorting through many mistruths to uncover what is true. Don’t take my word for it—keep seeking for yourself.

Everyone desires shiny manifestations, and we climb ladders, putting forth our efforts to control Creation, often unwilling to experience destruction. We are still collectively unwilling to know the feminine.

Have you experienced destruction on your way up? Oh Lord, I have. It’s a humbling experience, but I’m grateful for it. It taught me not to be a fool, not to think that every pot comes off the wheel as a masterpiece. Some result in a pile of mud. But I already knew that.

When our ascent becomes our descent, we have a beautiful opportunity to explore the soil. To come back to Earth. And since we want earthly, tangible things to come into form, it would be wise to involve the actual particles of matter (Mother/Mater).

The Soils hold the Secrets. They inoculate your remembrance and gestate your desires. The Soils make you Creational again; they help you remember. They take you out of the world of consumerism and commodities and reintroduce you as an aspect of Creation.

It is a wise woman who will be willing to shift out of the narratives of ascension and manifestation and deeply rest in the Soils of Creation.

Just as you cannot expect to always reap your harvest from the same garden without replenishing the nutrients with compost, you cannot have true creation without the energetics of destruction.

A Woman Who Embodies Destruction Is a Safer Woman

Being in touch with the true destruction of the Primordial force of Creation is the safest and most empowering thing for a woman and those in her life.

Something was drastically lost when women were stripped of this knowing—of being their own power.

The energetic structure of society, the way work and money have operated, and patriarchy as a whole were false. By that, I mean they were counter to Creational energetics. They went against Nature rather than working with it. They stripped and extracted resources instead of replenishing them.

And the reason why women are tired now is that your resources were extracted by the system. Let’s call "burnout" what it really is.

The structure of the systems that have existed in patriarchy purposefully diverted and stole feminine energy. Women temporarily forgot their Creational capacity, which happens when systems of deficit and resource extraction are established. Generation upon generation of women have been forced to think about survival for themselves and their children.

No shame. I mean, we still have to prioritize our remembrance if we want it, because the world would be very satisfied to continue to reap from women’s wombs and creational energies. If you want to recover the sovereignty and sanctity of your own feminine resources and create with them, then you're the one who must do that work. (I am here to support you.) The world will not grant it to you, if you haven't noticed.

As women fought to escape that system—think “feminism”—they fought for power by opposing the system. This is an early phase of feminine empowerment. We realize we’ve been oppressed and that someone (many someones) has been taking from us for too long, and we start to revolt.

We name names, we point fingers, we complain, we say, “I don’t need a man!” We self-protect, we isolate, and we become willing to do it all ourselves.

This is not healthy destruction. This is the anti-life, anti-Creational force turned against ourselves, unknowingly. We’d be far better off cultivating our remembrance of Creation and the creational capacity within us.

Because something magical happens when we remember Primordial Creation and also embody the remembrance of Primordial Destruction.

We become powerful—not in opposition or relation to anyone else—but because that is what we are. That is what the Primordial Feminine is. And she is a force for Love.

Again, that is what we are doing in the Heartland Inner Circle for women.

Healthy Destruction and Feminine Power

This is what they fear in us.

They subdued the feminine to steal our creational capacity and thwart our natural force of destruction. They aimed to make us forget we are powerful.

We have the ability to create and destroy, just as the Primordial Mother of Creation.

I have witnessed things change in the field simply because I entered a room.

I have seen men’s false power and manipulation turn against them when a woman begins to embody who she truly is and detaches. (A woman who fights against false power only strengthens it, giving her energy away to it. Have you noticed that?)

I have seen the grids of the Earth begin to support what is built in collaboration with the organization of the Cosmic Womb and stop supporting what is built on false structures that deplete. (I personally believe and experience that this is what Hurricane Helene was about in late 2024 in Western NC, where I live.)

This and more is happening because we remember. When we embody the power of Creation and Destruction, the energy field of our lives is transformed. It reorganizes. It expels what doesn't belong. It takes care of things for you. It works with you, for thriving life. (This only works, of course, if you're in actual integrity and embodiment of this.)

I now have friends who are other mothers who have also lost their children to abuse, manipulative ex-husbands, a faulty judicial system, and a lack of societal initiations for our sons in adolescence. I’m one of these women.

The amount of burden we women have had to bear within these power dynamics often feels like the same abuse and draining of our energy that we’ve endured for centuries. It’s often a cycle of abuse, systematically designed to strip power, but it’s infuriating.

I feel we are in an in-between time, regaining our personal remembrance of rightful power and remembering collectively, while the systems of exploitation remain in place. Good thing we’ll be ready as they fall.

My friends and I have had some enlightening conversations about anger. One of my friends, whose children were taken from her, said, “I think it’s healthy to feel so angry you could actually kill someone.” Because it means you’re not lying down, just taking it, crying victim, or whining about injustice in hopes it will make a difference. And obviously, we’re not going to kill anyone. But you know what it does result in to feel this deeply? Our own becoming.

We won’t be destroyed or drained anymore, not even energetically. So, by God, we’re going to get really angry and channel it into who we’re meant to become. If this makes no sense to you, I’m sorry. If it scares you a little, we’re on the right track.

Women, I encourage you to embody your destruction. The force of it. Can you feel it?

It needs to be a force that works for love, Creation, the children, and what is rightful—not against anything.

Some healthy fear also leads to respect. If women bring this destructive force online within themselves, we are no longer doormats. That force would have to be respected because it is respectable.

No one stands in front of a hurricane and tells it to stop. No one thinks it can boss Mother Nature (except those trying to manipulate her, but that’s another story). No one tries to take a lion cub from a mama lion. Nature teaches us about healthy destruction. It’s not just “Mama Bear.” It’s powerful destruction.

And here’s the thing: the more a woman embodies her remembrance of the Primordial Feminine, the less she will tolerate. The sheer act of standing up as herself in these spaces is enough to dismantle the false grid (energy) structures that have upheld those false power dynamics.

Think about it—if your energy and resources, which were kept enslaved in a false system where not just men but negative forces acting through any human kept you like a puppet on a string, suddenly can no longer do that because you remember…

It’s almost as though you become naturally destructive.

You don’t wish harm. You don’t curse anyone.

You remember who you are and allow the almighty power of the Mother Returned to do what it does. Flip a table. Set fire to a situation. Or a paradigm.

And then you plant. You cultivate your soils. You deepen into the fecundity, and you do it for all the generations forward and backward. Because you can. Because this is what you came to do, who you came to be.

You resist by becoming.

You win by remembering.

You create and destroy because you have the capacity to love.

And you’re too loving to choose evil or revenge, so you invest your destructive capacity into more creation. (This is also called eros.)

And you repeat.

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